I don't understand you.
You used to smile at me in ways that seemed bright.
Was it all a facade? Was the joy in your eyes a trick of the light?
You told me to be strong, you taught me to fight for myself.
But you also taught me obedience in the harshest ways
leaving me to cry on my own, never comforting me.
Was this the tough love you sought to give me?
So many unseen tears were shed, and every time
I would put on a brave smile and hide everything away.
You hurt me once, but I never complained.
My youth healing me quickly as I went out to play
Then you hurt me twice, I blinked hard, seeing stars.
I covered my ears so I wouldn't hear what you would say
But you still got inside me and broke me apart
Ice fell from my face as I tried to mend what I could
but even the best carpenter, weaver, and craftsman could not fix what was done.
After this, I still sought your love and guidance, desperate that fate was wrong
You hurt me a third time, shattering my everything into shards
I tried to pick up the pieces but
the pieces pierced through my skin and flesh, I was bleeding inside and out
I tried to cry but my lungs collapsed
And then I faltered.
I fell forwards and a shard pierced through my chest, making me realize the hallowness of it
From then I knew that fate was cruel.
I got up with my eyes extinguished
what had been done was done and never undone
I would never cry for you
not again, nevermore
I would never love you
not ever, can never
I will always utter your name without love nor affection
For you will always be a stranger to me
from hence forth and today on